Well I've kinda gotten depressed lately. Lasan is over and there's nothing to do. I don't really get to hang out with my good friends Catherine, Minhthy, Alyssa, Sam, and Crystal anymore. At least I get to go to the movies with Alyssa, Crystal, Thaidan, and other Asians tomorrow. YAY. :D But that's not the real reason I'm depressed. Matt invited me to go see I Love You, Beth Cooper with him, Monique, and Kelli, but I didn't wanna go. Things have been real awkward between me and Kelli since she said she "didn't like the way I act", but I thought we worked that out. I guess not. If you don't like the way I act, don't bother being my friend. Doesn't matter. This really isn't worth it. I'm not gonna beg and plea for ANYONE to be my friend. I am who I am, and that's what you're gonna get get. I have real friends who like me for who I am, so I'm just gonna forget those who don't. But yesterday I got really depressed because of that. People are always judging me, thinking I'm this horrible, mean person. Yes, I am mean, but that's when I'm upset. I have such a troubled life, you wouldn't even know. But no one bothers to think about that. They just think that I am naturally a horrible person. I am way too stressed out for a 13 year old, and then there's all these mean people. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO. I can't help it, I get so frustrated. It's not fair. No one ever said life was fair. But I'm going to let you know that you should NOT judge me. I am actually sweet and understanding. But you wouldn't know that if you can't even be understanding towards me. So I'm not gonna bother with these people who think they're so cool going around saying they're "aggravated" by me. So just whatever. I HAVE real friends. Which is why I've been best friends with Minhthy for so long. SO SCREW YOU, HATERS.
Anywho, I'm sure I'm gonna have fun tomorrow watching Harry Potter. LOL, us Asians and our nerdy movies. Now that Lasan summerschool is over, I'm going to need to keep myself occupied. I'm going to miss talking to you, Catherine and Alyssa. I can't wait until Catherine joins Van Nghe. But I'm sad 'cause Sarah's not coming back, I heard. I'M GOING TO BE SO LONELY. Sarah's the only one I can really sit and talk to. We're both so spastic and weird. I'm gonna miss her. PLEASE DON'T GO. Like, I can hang out with Minhthy, Crystal, and Alyssa, but Minhthy always hangs out with Edbert because they're "cousins" and Crystal always talks to Kevin and Alex or Edbert. Darn. And if Catherine comes, I won't be lonely, but she knows everyone else and she'll probably talk to Danielle or Edbert or someone of that sort. Sigh. ): I'm depressed. All weekend I've been listening to River Flows in You by Yiruma. It's such a sad, calming song, it definitely suits my mood. GAH, NO MORE YIRUMA FOR ME. Oh, but I can't help it. ;B
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Work it girl! That's right, you tell them who you are and what you feel. And if you EVER feel like you need someone to talk to, I'll always be here. And yes, you are sweet and understanding... at times when you're not in a pissy mood to hit people. But whoever thinks that it's okay messing with you, me and Catherine will back you up. I know how you feel, same EXACT thing happened to me, but I got real friends and I don't need jerks. So whoever thinks that it's okay to be a jerk to you, you come to me alright :D
ReplyDeleteYiruma calms me down too. Hahaha, I play it on the piano all the time. Edbert sounds like he's taking away all your friends ;P
Edbert is a friend-stealing meanie. >;[
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ReplyDeleteYou make me feel loved, and I'll study my ass off, so I can be back at Van Nghe. I don't wanna leave, without Van Nghe my life is downhill . Asian parents.
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